DumbStonedPup

Lately I have really been leaning into my attraction to trans men. I think there are multiple reasons for this. 

1) My ex is ftm. He is the person I am inlove with forever.  There is too much to breakdown with all that, and I don’t really want to anyways. I’ll just say, when I was being told im bipolar-2, he recognized it as Bpd (ended up diagnosed right b4 he left me)

2) not specific to my attraction of trans men, but for coming statements. My kinks have always informed me of subconscious desires, fears, and insecurities. I like D/s relationship dynamics because im so sad and anxious and unfocused, but also have not developed skills to be better. Subspace is an escape from the burden from figuring life out alone, and learning discipline. When I thought I was str8 (5th/6th grade), I was into cuckolding cause my dick is on the low end of average and I hated myself for it. I got into forced bi, then realized I am mainly into men, if anything I need “forced” to be with a woman. you get the point. 

​3) I have dick issues, as was stated above. Idk if it is valid enough to make me enby. Everything else about my body is something I am comfortable with (except in a health/aesthetic sense). My ex was kind of a truscum, but more in the sense of label usage. Maybe Im unwilling to identify as enby because of him, maybe its bigger than that. 

4) Body Envy, might as well be honest about it. My ex thought I was hot cause I an the thick hairy cis-boi and he wanted my body. I have body envy of ftm people. I’m not fem, and dont like my chub tits as is (even if I am over stating the size), I know I am not female. But I hate being male. I used to be into forced feminization and sissy stuff b4 I was with my ex. Then that kink became silly for my enjoyment. Just emasculation works better. 

5) An average cis guy wouldn’t get it. A transman has been experienced the disgust of and need to escape your body. They know what it is like to see apart of yourself and want it gone or out of commission.Just because my dysmorphia presents itself through kink, does not mean it is a fetish that went to far. My mind analyzes itself best through kink and music. 

I dig cis & trans men, masc enby peeps, even some fem enby peeps, and there is precedent for attraction to trans women, but that might be a 2 women exception. Cis women only interest me in a forced setting where my don would be forcing me (funny how that came full circle. 

I really dig the small amount of FTM dom porn I have found here and really want more. Id even love to make some once I have a committed primary R/relationship. But I do not fetishize trans men. I identify closest with their look, which makes me want to submit. I suddenly feel safer than with a cis man, because I am probably not a cis man and I so badly want it proven to me, and forced out of me. 

Anybody who wants to talk, not just FTM peeps, hit up my inbox. or snap me at kinkygaydude. Just tell me ur blog name if you do. I do not send nudes right away, and wont till we are tight and you establish you want that.